But I DO

I've been trying to find other things to occupy myself

ANYONE, I MEAN ANYONE look to food to fill the boredom? One of the things I've found during this time is an additional 30 pounds.... THANK HEAVENS I am not back over 300 but if I keep on going this way, it won't be long. I don't want to see it happening. 

I STRESS EAT. I think what the hell... something happened and I'm gonna eat this chocolate to deal with it or have a coke. WHO doesn't need a coke?? Me, I don't. No one cares if I eat CRAP to help me deal with whatever emotional trauma I am dealing with that day. It affects no one but me and I tell myself that eh, I'll do better tomorrow, but I don't. I don't know why I lie to myself. But I do. 

I tell myself I'm not going to eat anymore junk, but I do.

I tell myself I won't stop for a coke, but I do.

I tell myself I'm not buying the ice cream, but I do.

I tell myself that I won't eat it all, but I do.

I tell myself I won't stop for fancy coffee, but I do.

I tell myself I won't skip exercise today, but I do.

I tell myself so many lies you'd think I'd see through, but I don't.

This is the life of a food addict.